Chapter 8. The Power of Small Gratitude

 

Taken in Tokyo, Japan, 2020

I am guessing what my friends doing right now if they were provided a blank window of a PC. I am curious what are they gonna do first. I was doing nothing at the same time when I faced blank paperwork on my website. I've no idea what going on in the next 1 minute or 10 minutes I kept looking at it. It is just the same with my life. I don't know what will happen with my ordinary life. It has been almost 2 years since I experienced the pandemic. Everything comes and goes by itself. The year when I need to change my intention, plan, and so on. The year I was able to expand myself better or worse. The year when the time seems to stop running but suddenly everything changed by its nature. Right at the beginning of this year, I made the decision to stop my fear. I ensured myself to not worry about life. Then, I swore to myself that I'll put full of dedication.

My life was drastically changed into a new life as I expected but this would happen because of the Mercy of God. But all good things always need a cost. I will never be able to predict what this universe planned. This year, the biggest lesson that God might want to teach for me is I shouldn't be greedy. What I have now, what God gave are already enough and I should grateful for them. He really wants to teach me that trust never disappoints us. Taking a bit of patience which is never-ending, would be the best exercise both mentally and physically. Until now, I can take down my Ego just because I believe that freedom in our heart, mind, and soul would be the best thing I can do for these complicated problems. I want to tell those who share the same shoes with me that no matter how struggled we are if we never learn to accept what nature gives, I think we can't be ready for the next level of our life.